can i still be punk if i’ve been crying for four straight hours
I’m constantly anxious, I’m starting to graduate from anxiety attacks to panic attacks, I have random nervous breakdowns, I’m always stressed out, I can’t sleep, and I feel like there’s never enough time in the day to get anything done and it almost makes me need to throw up.
The intrusive thoughts are back, and it’s getting incredibly hard to control them. They’re getting violent, and my temper is starting to get out of hand.
I suspect it’s all of the pressure from my job, but either way the lifestyle I’m living needs some tweaking or I’m worried it’s all going to keep getting worse.
I can’t take benzodiazepines because they make me fall asleep, but my constant cigarette smoking to divert the anxiety has been destroying my throat and I’m constantly sick because of it.
I know in the end I’ll just have to power through it, but it’s getting so fucking hard to do on my own. My friends don’t care, and the ones that do don’t have any advice to give to me that I am not already aware of.
I hate being stuck in this cycle.